Last few night dream was wonderful.
Abe casually came to me and asked me to walked with him. so we walked, strolled in Pasar Pagi in the neighbourhood.
He looked older, thinner, greyer. hair trimmed short. wearing his favourite blue black collared shirt with loose, seasoned jeans.
I was pushing Lily in her stroller. we talked about what is Lazada, what is qr code. we discussed things happened in Gaza.
then he said he must go back from where he belong later that night and i said okay.
while talking with my wife in living room, I asked her where is Lily? then she said last time she saw Abe playin with her in his room.
somehow i remembered Abe told me he wanted to pray isya’. i thought i need to fetch Lily then and then sebab Abe nak solat kan.
then i opened the door, saw him holding Lily in his qiam, rukuk and i’tidal, only put Lily down during sujood. man, he must have love Lily so much. come on. its Lily kot, everyone loves her haha.
after salam he apolgised to me, he must put Lily down because she is heavy and his lower back pain troubled him lately. before i reply anything,
suddenly i woke up to darkness with warm tears flowing down onto my cheek. i was in my room with my wife and my Lily by my side.
Allahu i completely forgot Abe was gone. I have so much things, stories to tell you my man, and it was felt too surreal.
and I realised the brief moment with him is just the thing I need lately.
A.M.